Crisis, Crises

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in the midst of shadow ( CD-R King x Centuria DNP 400)

Lately, I haven't been feeling myself. I guess the fact that it's almost the year end  is getting into me. I don't know about you, but I always panic around this time of the year. I feel like I haven't accomplished anything for myself. A year with 12 months is just a wee bit too short to do all the things you want and need. Although I have checked quite a few things on this year's must-accomplish list, I still feel a bit unfinished.

I have a few things on the list that I still need to work on and it breaks my heart that I may have to carry these things on to next year's list.

shining sun (CD-R King x Centuria DNP 400)

I think I'm also a bit pressured that next year I'll be turning 25. I know to some, this might seem young, but I already feel old. I feel like I need to step up my game for myself and for my family. To me 25 is like a benchmark year. You're no longer a teenager and you already have a few years of being an 'adult' under your belt. Just having some 'big' accomplishments will help you feel that you're on the right track to adulthood.

I've never been the "que sera, sera" type of person. I sometimes wish I was, but that kind of happy-go-lucky character has never been in my system. I've always been the worried-like-mom kind of person who wants to plan and be in control of everything. But, life doesn't work that way. Things can go awry any minute.

leaves falling (Smena 8M x Euro Color 200)

I guess what I really want in life is to achieve a lot of things for myself. Nobody can learn how to swim for me. Nobody can learn how to save and invest for me. And, nobody can work hard for the things I want to buy.

I owe it to myself to achieve great things. Sometimes, I just feel like I haven't been pushing myself too hard. There's a voice inside saying I can still do a lot of things and it's just waiting for me to take action.